It’s Sunday!!!! Which has actually become my favorite day of the week. I get to see my church family, hear a good word, sing great songs, then spend time with my biological family and/or friends and eat a great meal. Sunday is also a great day to reflect and prepare for the week ahead. A great time to look at the previous week and all that was accomplished despite how hard it may have been. I love it!!
Today I’m reflecting on food and health. I realized over the course of the last week and today that I have been looking at food all wrong lately. Many who know me would say that i am health conscious, and I am. I truly do care about my health and the health of my family, friends, acquaintances, people I don’t yet know and so on and so forth. I care to eat foods that will benefit my body and to also get proper rest and exercise. I care about balance.
After having a child and working in a more sedentary job than before I have consistently weighed 20 pounds more than I’m used to and it has begun to bother me. I have found myself fixated on losing weight or just maintaining my weight so I done get any bigger rather than focusing on my overall health. This week, I realized that for the past year or so, I have been more focused on whether a food might cause me to gain weight and whether this expert recommended it or that expert. I have pretty much lost sight of making sure I am taking proper care of my body. I have found myself eating really well and then going on a binge of eating really bad and then working out really hard to get rid of the effects of my bad eating. I have found myself carrying a certain level of guilt for eating certain foods, which I’m sure has raised my cortisol levels. I have even found myself under eating (I am by no means anorexic) at times because in my mind I done want to eat too much food, but my body may need it.
Today I’m letting that unhealthy view of food and my weight go. I am focused on eating whole, real foods, letting go of filler snacks, and just providing my body with the nutrition it needs. I am also moving forward with the knowledge that I am eating for my health and no other reason and that I need not have guilt over the foods I eat. I love myself. I love you. I hope that you will join me in focusing on your health and well being.